Wednesday, October 25, 2006 I'm addicted. To what? The game. What game? The only one that matters.
-laughs- melodramatic non? But the truth is that I am. And that it is addictive.
Home from camp for attachment right now. Feeling pretty restless...so many things I wanna do but NS keeps getting in the way. Least my guitar's improving though. It's raining right now.
Skid Row's hands down my favourite band. Snake Sabo is Gary Moore meets Richie Sambora... and I wanna sing wike Sebastian Bach when i gwow up...-smirk- In a Darkened Room's playing on my comp for the 72nd time today.
I think that aptitude at anything can reach a level whereby it becomes self-sufficient, and can grow even without one actively doing anything directly related to it. Writers look at a falling leave and they see inspiration for a new madrigal. Entrepeneurs see it and they've an idea for a new business innovation. I wonder what porn directors think of when they see it...-laughs-
I find it vaguely amusing that I always tell my ex girls that they'll find a new guy soon and they never believe me.
The level of freedom is still intoxicating, despite being stifled by NS...feel like i'm in a really long prep stage right now. Preparing for what? Anything but mediocrity is about as specific as I can get right now. Dunno if I'm doing too much...writing, guitar, the band, the game...gotta pick up French, cooking and the fundamentals of investment soon though. And teaching, if you can believe it...-laughs- So what is it that I'm preparing for?
I'll tell you when I find out.
Be passionless. Be excellent. Be gone.
Word Alchemy | 3:50 AM
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Randomnity:
Met up with my bros that day. Managed to see all of them again 'cept for edwin and jonny, cuz one's in MP and still in camp, and the other's too busy with his girlfriend to be fucked about the rest of us. Comme ci comme ca, i guess; was really good to get together again with the rest though...Hou de is friggin massive now. Dunno, just kept having Ben Xiao Hai playing in my head while we were out. -grin- Like our theme song or something.
Theseus Chan is being given recognition; check him out on the advertisement boards at train stations under Most Influential Creative Directors of 2006.
My keyboardist is starting to get on my nerves...fucking spoilt. Need to tell tak to get his ho on a leash.
Ben: Hang in there man. There're lotsa girls out there. Girls come and girls go, but I'll always be your brother. Lol, sounding fucking emo, but yeah.
Ah, which reminds me. Saw maril that day, when i was out with my bros; she's changed a lot. -laugh- seemed so embarrased to see me, probably cuz of the company she was in. Can't say I took a liking to them. Kids these days are so irritating...amazingly immature.
And I need to get this off my chest, even if no one gets it:
It wasn't about you. I think you're a cool guy, but not someone I'd sacrifice something for. You aren't my homie...just a friend.
It wasn't about being selfless: I'm a selfish bastard. -shrug- I don't give a shit how other people feel.
It wasn't about OCT: I don't give a shit what most of you think about me. The people who I think are cool in there already understand. Politics can go to hell with two whoops and a fuck for all I care.
It was a matter of principle- pure and simple. If I hadn't done it, I wouldn't be me.
-sighs- I always end up disappointing my parents. Suppose that's the only thing I remotely regret about my decision. Whatever.
Happy national day.
Word Alchemy | 8:20 AM
Thursday, July 13, 2006
Gargoyle is finished...think it's semi-decent and my prose style is improving, but I've gotta polish it up a lil bit.
On that note, my Lit teacher managed to find a publishing opening for me...some local ghost story compilation thing. The restrictions are a bit lame, and definitely not my forte, but I'll be able to churn up something that only's a little cringe-worthy. -laughs- the only thing horrific about my ghost stories is my lack of experience in that field I guess...
I miss my bros. 'specially the ones I haven't seen in a bit: Ben and Edwin and Hou De...NS sucks big time man. Really gotta arrange a reunion dinner once all this NDP shit is over.
Elder Scrolls is a pretty decent game...I'd be addicted if I wasn't stuck in camp as much as I already am. -laughs- "Hi. My name is Raphael. Gamer." -waggles eyebrows at Brokeback Buddy-
Oh, and hola to any peeps from OCT 1 reading this shit.
And congrats Ben!! woot! -big grin-
Word Alchemy | 8:53 AM
Monday, July 10, 2006
Life right now, aptly summarised in two words:
"And then?"
Word Alchemy | 8:53 AM
Saturday, July 08, 2006
-the door slams open, dragging in a dark figure who is in the act of holding impotently on to the doorknob-
Friggin tired...just got back from NDP. Was the first NE show today- nothing much I guess: 60% of the show, fake stand-ins for the VIPs and cheap-ass fireworks which actually looked pretty cool. In the 17th column, 2nd row... ho-hum.
The band did our first recording yesterday; think we sound semi-decent, although not good enough for any respectable gigs yet. Just need to do some polishing up and practising on individual skills I guess. Think I'm going to be able to play shred guitar pretty soon...maybe two more months or so, if things follow according to schedule. Need to start moving into Jazz Improvisation, and maybe the perfect pitch regime...
I need a haircut. I need to bathe. I need to write. Gotta publishing opening coming up soon; nothing much i guess, but maybe it'll lead to more options, which would be good, specially considerin' I'm still in NS.
-waves- Hello Dee, hope you're feelin in a bit more un-weird moood right now.
Speaking of which, Fred drove me home yesterday after jamming. It felt weird in a good sorta way...like the way I've known my bros for 6 coming to 7 years now. Seems like only yesterday when we were fist-fighting in TK. -laughs- "Baby we've come a long way." Can imagine when we're all crotchety old men playing chinese chess at the bottom of old void decks, or helping each other dang jiu whenever one of us gets married. I dunno, just glad that I've got my pack. Missin' all of em right now; it's been a while since we all met up and had dinner.
Gonna go bathe right now...can't live with myself, smellin' like this. ~_^
The devil has left the building
Word Alchemy | 7:18 AM
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Mm, rushing off to camp soon so here's a brief update on my life, for the -1253 people who actually bother to read my blog...~^
In the last 3 months I:
-have been selected the Police OCT course...think of it as OCS with a little less money, no tough training and inversely proportional level of prestige. 8-5 job when i graduate more than balances things out though.
-have been missing my pack. It's been a long time since we all got together...missin ya guys.
-learnt that I topped the school for History...yeah, life's hysterical ain't it? Ho hum...
-Aced my A levels; as expected. See top point
-Still wanna get my bike license...(Yes Wei Ying, I know.)
-Have lost contact with virtually everyone from MJC...guess it's my own nature at fault, though. Born recluse.
-Bought myself a whoop-ass new Athlon with 1 GIG RAM and 130 Gigs HD space. -grin- Life is good with OCT pay.
-'ve been writing quite a lot, or at least more than most of the peeps in NS; think I've actually improved a little, instead of stagnanting or detoriating like i feared. I can write anywhere and at virtually any time now, which is proving to be really useful. (Word of advice to other aspiring writers in NS: bring a big black book and a nice ballpoint pen when you book in, write to your greedy little heart's content, don't give a shit about any weird looks or stupid remarks that may come your way. Rock on...)
-learnt basic musical engineering...just mixing and balancing. My guitar's improved quite a bit...the band's really moving now, albeit not as fast as I'd like it to. Hope for a gig early next year or late this December...
-made peace with my ex...well, kind of anyway. Good thing too...don't like disliking people.
So those are fragments from my life in NS...or at least life between book outs anyway.
Wanda: Missing ya kitten. Just in case you read this
Word Alchemy | 7:00 AM
-A dark figures, limping on the edge of the horizon, drawing ever close- ... ... ... -Big grin-
Hola, ye of little faith. Tis Raphael, back from the dead.
Decided to move cuz I was starting to feel a little old for that Teen Open Diary thing...-sighs- old's an understatement, feeling decrepit; a positive relic. Just need some people with spades to bury me 'neath about forty feet of sand to be eligible for the description.
No idea how this thing works. Guess I'll get the hang of it as time goes by.
